My Reiki love story:
I recently was in a challenging space in my marriage. I’ve noticed after 16 years that it seems to go through cycles. And sometimes when I am on a downslope it can get pretty ugly. The past 3 down slopes that we have gone through have been met with the gift of Holy Fire Reiki. You’d think I would begin to trust this new wonderful presence in my life, but each time I gaze in to my husbands eyes in disbelief of once again where Holy Fire Reiki has taken us!
This last down slope was pretty uncomfortable. So much so I contemplated an exit strategy. Until the day I was guided to my next healing that would take place. It happened on Friday morning. I sat to do my Reiki Meditation and was guided to look at my book shelf. Then a book popped out at me that I haven’t picked up in about 15 years! It was “The Anatomy of Spirit” by Caroline Myss. I was guided to open to the chapter that talked about the second chakra and then did my meditation. After that I was guided to the chapter on the first chapter. Two and a half hours later I was in tears of gratitude. There was a spontaneous healing while reading those chapters. I got very clear guidance to stay with my marriage.
My heart opened and grew a few sizes and I went to embrace my husband to let him know how sorry I was for withdrawing my love, for the projections I was placing on him and for not trusting our journey. I also let him know all the healing that took place within those two hours around old family wounds, shame and self sabotage. After I shared with him this experience he agreed to read the book as well.
Quantum leaps and spontaneous healing is something I have heard about but I don’t have a lot of experience with. Healing for me has been more subtle and consistent and seems to require a bit more effort on my part. This experience was spontaneous and took both of us from a closed shut off place of fear, doubt and exasperation to unconditional love, trust and vulnerability within a few hours. I feel very humbled and blessed to have received this healing.
Fast forward to Sunday evening. My husband and I had a date night. I wanted to “talk” – a man’s biggest fear LOL. Yet he shared deeply, with clarity and humility and a sense of love that I have never experienced in our relationship before. His voice was patient and kind and had a level of ownership and compassion in it that was new. He agreed that all this did seem like a quantum leap but that it felt true and he felt a sense of peace with our relationship.
OK! I’ll take it. I didn’t want this good feeling we had right after our hard times to be brushed under the bed and taken for granted. I wanted to “process” and make sure we knew what was alive in each other’s hearts. I wanted to make lists and agreements. Yet after hearing his heart and feeling the healing that happened in mine, I was willing to just say thank you, get out of my head, get out of controlling it all and be grateful for this blessing we received on our marriage.
I’m even thinking about when we can renew our vows!
Holy Fire Reiki has a way of working with relationships and communication. Sometimes its subtle and sometimes it is a sudden quantum leap into something that you think will take years to unravel. What I’ve noticed is that it can be uncomfortable and push boundaries and edges and can open you up. What I’ve learned most from this experience is to trust, surrender and offer it up to Reiki and be still enough to listen for the guidance.
I’ve spent so many of my days reaching, pondering and trying.
For what you may ask?
To be my best self, to find my highest consciousness, to feel better and to helpful to others.
I have to say living this way has some rewards but after a while it is exhausting.
Today I caught myself again in meditation and doing that same reaching instead of giving myself the gift of be here now.
In pure presence there is no reaching, no asking, no guidance, no anything but the acknowledgement of the sensations, thoughts and energy. Just being with what is.
Being here now is great and all but how does it pay the bills, get my work done and create forward in my life?
I know right? Well it seems to me, from what I’ve gathered, is that the energy of ‘be here now’ is full of possibility and allowance and that energy itself is a frequency that attracts that next moment. When we create forward from that possibility we actually are creating from a higher frequency then our judgments and projections of what life could and should look like.
The gift of BE HERE NOW is that you get to start a new reality with endless possibilities in it rather then taking the past and projecting it into your future.
So how do you get to the space of BE HERE NOW?
Here are a few practices that work for me:
1- Appreciate the present moment: the sensations in your body, the colors and sights around you and the sounds you hear.
2- Follow and focus on your breath: in and out, deep and shallow, expanding and contracting
3- Breath and Sound : Take a breath and use your voice to make a sound; let go of any judgement, just make a sound from where you are right now
We are highly trained thinkers and questioners in this culture. We have become mega minds! But the mind is just a tool that originated to assist the whole of us – the source of us – THE BLISS BODY. To assist the ever expanding consciousness of the universe. Being here now is actually the greatest tool to experiencing our truest nature – our bliss body.
I have found that vocal awareness is a fascinating tool to see where we are playing …. judgement of our voice and frequencies of our voice give us so much awareness of what is active, where we are creating from and what is keeping us from that here and now …. AND then being present with all that LOL.
So take a breath … let out a sound … and be completely and utterly present with what shows up!